Thought I Had It All Figured Out (Random Thoughts In My Head At The Moment)

This thing called life we live

It's constantly moving

Time is passing us by

You thought you had it all figured out

Then life smacks you down right when everything seems perfect

What am I to do?

Should I give up and cry defeat?

I feel so alone so weak

Never had to go through anything like this

Is it because I turned my back on GOD?

I forgot to seek him because everything was perfect

I turned my back on GOD when my father committed suicide years ago

I never looked back

Is this my punishment???

Why must my future children suffer because I stopped seeking you?

If I seek you will you forgive me???

You gave me two blessings that are growing inside me.

Why are you letting the devil take over my life?

I see now ...I stopped seeking you

Leaving room for the devil to get in.