The reason I breathe

Never thought I'd be a mother
Never thought I could love another
I was blessed with two
My boys cheer me up when I feel like I can't make it through
The stresses of life and the world takes over me
When I look by my side these two beautiful boys is all I see

Sorry

Sorry to myself
For losing myself

Writing has always been my first love!! I got so caught up with my day job, my family, my friends and life….. I lost what made me -ME!! Sometimes it takes someone outside of your circle to tell you something you already know. You need that reassurance!! I have to make it a habit to at least write something once a day. Instead of sitting back and feeling defeat I'm going to do something I should have done a long time ago. I'm going to focus on what makes me happy.  WRITING!!!

For Those Of You that Like Urban Fiction

I started a whole new blog specifically for my urban fiction writing. Please check it out and leave tons of feedback!! http://urbanfictionbydorianshelton.blogspot.com

Thought I Had It All Figured Out (Random Thoughts In My Head At The Moment)

This thing called life we live

It's constantly moving

Time is passing us by

You thought you had it all figured out

Then life smacks you down right when everything seems perfect

What am I to do?

Should I give up and cry defeat?

I feel so alone so weak

Never had to go through anything like this

Is it because I turned my back on GOD?

I forgot to seek him because everything was perfect

I turned my back on GOD when my father committed suicide years ago

I never looked back

Is this my punishment???

Why must my future children suffer because I stopped seeking you?

If I seek you will you forgive me???

You gave me two blessings that are growing inside me.

Why are you letting the devil take over my life?

I see now ...I stopped seeking you

Leaving room for the devil to get in.

Life

Words cannot express the feeling of two living things coexisting inside of you. I am still in shock when I think about carrying twins. There was a point in my life when a doctor informed me that I would never be able to hold a child because I had a weak cervix. I am so glad that doctor didn't know what the hell he was talking about. I am officially six months pregnant with twin boys!! This is truly a blessing! I thank GOD everyday for it! I feel honored to carry two men inside of me that are going to be something great in life with a lot of guidance and motivation from both of their parents. Life is a beautiful thing!!

THIS RING IS SO BEAUTIFUL!!! I WANT IT BUT NOT AS A WEDDING RING. WHY DO WOMEN GO CRAZY FOR THIS??? IT'S JUST A RING!! SOME ONLY CARE ABOUT THIS... FUCK LOVE FUCK THE ACTUAL MARRIAGE!! THEY WANT SOMETHING TO SHOW FOR!! I JUST DON'T GET IT!! SOMEONE EXPLAIN THIS TO ME!!!

RANDOM PICS OF ME

MY BABY PIC! I'VE ALWAYS BEEN A FAN OF THE FRO!

I LOVE THIS PIC!

WHEN I WAS IN FIRST GRADE!

I  WAS TRYING TO LOOK SEXY HERE!

I LOVE THIS PIC!! THIS WAS INSPIRED BY MOS DEF. I LOVE HIM!!

MY TWITCON AND FACEBOOK PROFILE PIC!

MY BF MADE ME ON SAINTS ROW!! IT LOOKS LIKE ME!! HILARIOUS!!