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Thursday, July 8, 2010

THE PEOPLE

OBSESSED WITH THE ENTERTAINMENT INDUSTRY & STARDOM
DEPRESSED CUZ YOU WANT TO BE APART OF THEM
BUT THE INDUSTRY IS SUCH A SHAM
YOU HAVE TO SELL YOUR SOUL TO THE DEVIL SO YOU CAN BE SUCCESSFUL TO TAKE CARE OF YOUR FAM
THE INDUSTRY AINT MEANT FOR ME
ILL RESEARCH AROUND AND BUILD MY KNOWLEDGE WICKEDLY
THIS INDUSTRY IS NOT THE SAME GOT MOTHERFUCKERS WORSHIPPING DEMONS
& THEIR MUSIC VIDEOS ARE SO MISLEADING
THEY SHOWING YOU THE TRUTH IN EM BUT YOU TOO BLIND TO SEE
WALKING AROUND AIMLESSLY
DONT KNOW WHO ARE YOU, WHERE YOU GOING & WHY
YOU'RE PRAISING FALSE IDOLS KISS YOUR SOUL GOODBYE
THIS WORLD IS GOING TO HELL, YOU ALREADY KNOW THIS SO DONT CRY
THESE RAPPERS STRAIGHT MOCKING THE MOST HIGH
ALL I CAN DO IS SHAKE MY HEAD AND LOOK UP TO THE SKY

RANDOM

JUST SOME WORDS I WROTE DOWN ONE DAY AT WORK... I'D RATHER POST IT THEN LOSE THE RECEIPT I WROTE IT DOWN ON

HERE GOES:
MY WORDS ARE WRITTEN ON PAPER
DONT LET THE BLINDNESS THATS CONTROLLING YOUR MIND DRAPE YA
YOU'VE ALLOWED THE MEDIA & THE MUSIC TO MENTALLY & SPIRITUALLY RAPE YOU

FOR THE PEOPLE THAT KNOW WHAT IVE BEEN RESEARCHING FOR THE PASS YEAR, YOU FEEL THOSE WORDS AND UNDERSTAND WHERE IM COMING FROM AND FOR THOSE THAT DONT UNDERSTAND.... THOSE WORDS APPLY TO YOU

SEX IS EVERYTHING

SO EVERYONE THAT KNOWS ME WELL, KNOWS THAT I AM CELIBATE. I'VE BEEN CELIBATE FOR SO LONG I FORGOT HOW LONG. PEOPLE OFTEN TIMES TEASE ME ABOUT IT BUT IM DOING IT FOR A GOOD REASON. SEX IS QUITE ADDICTING FOR FREAKS LIKE ME. I WAS GETTING OUT OF HAND WITH IT TO THE POINT WHERE I HAD TO TAKE A STEP OUTSIDE OF MYSELF AND LOOK IN AS A SPECTATOR. ALL I COULD DO WAS SMH AT WHAT I WAS DOING. I WAS SO HOOKED! THAT IT WAS A NEED, A MUST BUT NOW THAT IM CELIBATE IM FREE FROM MY ADDICTION. IM ACTUALLY MORESO SCARED TO HAVE SEX BECAUSE ONCE YOU START ITS A WRAP

Sunday, April 18, 2010

yearning

today is going to be one of those lonely nights
a lonely night wishing i had some strong arms wrapped around my naked body
pulling me back into him as he enters inside of me
thrusting deeper and harder with each thrust
nibbling on my nipples
making my mouth quiver
lightly choking at my throat
making me scream out in pleasure
and coming down my throat

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

FUZE

FUZE
So I work at the airport for those of you that dont already know this, I see passengers buying these drinks left and right so I decide to buy one. It says that this drink is suppose to refresh- contains vitamins and calcium. If its so good for you why the hell cant you pronounce half the gosh darn words in the ingredients. One thing that I have learned is that if you cant pronounce whats in it you dont need to be putting that crap in your body. Let me get back to the point so I went to Jewel's on Roosevelt right by the orange and green line so I can get me some sushi (I love sushi) on my way home. I walked pass the juice aisle and saw Fuze orange mango. I was like hmmm... $1.79? I guess I can try it since so many people buy it at the airport for almost $4 it has to be good. When I got home I maxed my sushi and I opened up my Fuze excited and ready to try something new. I gulped it down and enjoyed the taste at first until the after taste hit me. Dont ask me how I know this but it tasted the way ass should!! LOL Stay away from the FUZE Orange Mango!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I STAND ALONE

I STAND ALONE

I STAND ALONE
NO ONE HAS MY BACK
I HAVE MY OWN
I STAND ALONE
MY INNER CIRCLE WAS SHATTERED DUE TO THE DISCOVERY OF FOES
THERE WERE NO TRUE FRIENDS INSIDE
TIRED OF BEING COOL WITH THE FAKE & PHONY
I STAND ALONE
I WAS IN LOVE & I THOUGHT HE WAS TOO
HIS WORDS WERE SPOKEN BUT THEY WERE UNTRUE
I STAND ALONE
NO FATHER- LEFT WITH A SELFISH MOTHER WHOSE NEGATIVITY GOES IN ONE EAR & STAYS IN THE OTHER
I STAND ALONE
THE PERSON IM MOST CLOSEST TO LIVES IN ANOTHER STATE
NO MOTHER, NO FRIENDS, NO FATHER, & NO MATE
I AM STRONG
I STAND ALONE

Nothing is wrong with being alone. If you cant enjoy your own company, how do you expect someone else to want to spend time with you? When you're alone you get to know yourself as well as having piece of mind. *Try this if you are bold- go to the club alone* You'd be surprised at how much fun you'd have. I've gotten into clubs for free and I've gotten free drinks too.

WHAT I WANT

WHAT I WANT!!

SOMEONE I CAN GROW AS A PERSON WITH
SOMEONE WHO WANTS A SERIOUS RELATIONSHIP (NO FRIENDS w/ BENEFITS SHIT FOR ME!)
SOMEONE WHO ENJOYS LAUGHTER & CAN PUT UP w/ MY SILLY & OUTGOING PERSONALITY
SOMEONE WHO ENJOYS LIFE
SOMEONE w/o CHILDREN (DEPENDING ON HOW MUCH I LIKE YOU & HOW MUCH YOU CAN PROVE THAT YOU & THE MOTHER OF YOUR KIDS ARENT STILL INVOLVED PHYSICALLY AND EMOTIONALLY, I MIGHT RECONSIDER)
SOMEONE THAT LIKES TO TRAVEL BECAUSE I LOVE IT!
I HAVE TO BE ABLE HAVE FUN w/ YOU
I HAVE TO BE COMFORTABLE w/ YOU OR IT JUST WONT WORK
HAS TO BE CLEAN & MUST SMELL GOOD
HAS TO EITHER HAVE HIS OWN PLACE OR A CAR
MUST BE INTELLIGENT AND SUPPORTIVE w/ EVERYTHING I DO
THERE HAS TO BE SOMETHING SPECIAL ABOUT YOU FOR ME TO BE ATTRACTED TO YOU
MUST HAVE A POSITIVE ENERGY
MUST BE HONEST, LOYAL AND FAITHFUL
HAS TO BE STREET SMART w/o THE THUGGISH LIFESTYLE
HAS TO BE RESPECTFUL TO ALL WOMEN!!!
HAS TO PROVE THAT I AM THE ONLY WOMAN HE WANTS AND NEEDS!!!
WE HAVE TO COMPLIMENT EACH OTHER
MUST HAVE MY BACK
HAS TO HAVE SOME SORT OF FASHION SENSE
MUST BE ABLE TO ADAPT TO HIS SURROUNDINGS!!
***************thats all I have for now***************************
SONGS TO LISTEN TO WHEN YOU HAVE A BROKEN HEART & YOU’RE HOME ALONE CRYING LIKE ME (please note that this list is from last year)

LAURYN HILL-MR. INTENTIONAL, MYSTERY OF INIQUITY, I FIND IT HARD TO SAY & TELL HIM
INCUBUS-DIG
DANIEL BEDINGFIELD-GOTTA GET THRU THIS
ADELE-HOMETOWN GLORY
ANTHONY HAMILTON-CHARLENE
COLDPLAY-THE SCIENTIST
A PERFECT CIRCLE-3 LIBRAS
SOUNDGARDEN-BLACK HOLE SUN
ONE REPUBLIC-STOP&STARE
RADIOHEAD-KARMA POLICE
FLOETRY-IT'S GETTING LATE
BJORK-ARMY OF ME
JOHN MAYER-DREAMING WITH A BROKENHEART
BJORK-VENUS AS A BOY
ALICIA KEYS-LESSON LEARNED, WRECKLESS LOVE & PRELUDE TO A KISS
GOAPELE-CLOSER & YOU
ESTELLE-MORE THAN FRIENDS
NATASHA BEDINGFIELD-SOULMATE
DIRTY VEGAS-DAYS GO BY
AEROSMITH-DREAM ON, CRAZY & DONT WANT TO MISS A THING
SMASHING PUMPKINS-DISARM & TONIGHT
JAZMINE SULLIVAN-LIONS & TIGERS, & BREAK MY LITTLE HEART
STAIND-FADE
THATS IT FOR NOW
POEM THATS NOT FINISHED


TAKE ME OUT OF YOUR HOLD
LET MY HEART UNFOLD
RELEASE MY SOUL
YOU HAVE ALREADY TAKEN MY DIGNITY
PLEASE SET ME FREE
YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU
IF U LOVED ME YOU WOULD GRANT ME THIS WISH
WE WILL SEAL THE DEAL WITH A KISS
AND END WITH FAREWELL FOR NOW
LET YOUR MANIPULATIVE TONGUE CEASE ITS VERBAL ABUSE
SO I CAN REBUKE YOU FROM MY MIND
I LOST ME WITHIN YOU
I DONT LOVE WHAT I'VE BECOME
SET ME FREE

SECURITY OF THE WORLD

SECURITY OF DA WORLD

MY MIND GOES BLANK
I AM THOUGHTLESS
THE STRESS OF THE WORLD & MY LIFE ENCASES ME
CAUSING ME TO LOSE MY BREATH AND FORCING MY HEART TO SKIP A BEAT
WORDS CANNOT EXPRESS HOW UTTERLY CONFUSING LIFE CAN BE
ONE SECOND OR DECISION CAN CHANGE YOUR FUTURE IN AN INSTANT
MINE SURE HAS
BEING SECURITY OF THE WORLD HAS BENEFITED ME IN SO MANY WAYS
OFTEN TIMES I REGRET TAKING MY POSITION BECAUSE I COULD BE DOING SOMETHING MORE PRODUCTIVE WITH MY DAYS
PURSUING MY DREAMS OR MORE EXCITING THINGS
11 YEARS I'VE SPENT IN THIS PLACE
GOD GIVE ME A SIGN IT GETS SO DEPRESSING I CANT EVEN LOOK MYSELF IN THE FACE

(C) Dorian Shelton

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Celebs I've Met




My job has its benefits
MY CRITIQUE ON CELEBS IVE MET
CAM'RON FROM DIPSET- he was cool and down to earth, I was surprised by that* new album out in April
HARRY LENNOX- met him several times, he is always pleasant and cool. I know him through a mutual friend * has a new t.v. show coming out soon Dog Eat Dog, i think lol
LLOYD- he is a sweetheart, i bought both of his albums after I met him
DMX- is as he appears on T.V., he is cool but very loud
JASLENE FROM TOP MODEL- is nice, makes you feel like you're conversing with a friend
BEAUTIFUL FROM FLAVOR OF LOVE- soft spoken and down to earth, I actually gave her my guy friend's number because they were real good friends in H.S. and she called him. LOL You're welcome Ro!!
YUNG BERG- he is cute but too short for my liking I actually bumped into him literally it took me by surprise.
GINUWINE- gained some weight but looks the same lol
JOAKIM NOAH- is tall as hell! He had his "guy" friend with him. His sexuality is now questionable to me.
MIKEY FROM COOL KIDS- is cool of course lol
JOEY FROM THE REAL WORLD- is strong as hell, he is real easy going and held a 5 min convo with me. Love ya, Joey to bad you were on celeb rehab that sucks
JENNIFER HUDSON-actually met her 3x! 2x @ Express when I worked there as a sales associate. She is nice, funny and outgoing.
DON KING- is funny, he wanted me to go with him. I was rocking my nappy fro with him that day! I should've went lol
BRIAN URLACHER- is huge, he has a nice bod!SHAWNNA- is down to earth and hood with it. BRIAN FROM DAY 26- is cool, he is generous I told em I liked his shoes and he told me I could have em. lol
MR. PRESIDENT BARACK OBAMA- he has this positive aura about him. My coworkers told me Obama was in the building so I rush over as I see him from afar. He was shaking peoples hands and he began to walk away, I yell out "Dont forget about me". He turns to face me with his million $ smile and chuckles. I love OBAMA!!!
B.G.- looked a tad bit drugged out. I wonder what he was on?!
LIL WEBBIE- i think thats his name. He is short and stuck on his self. He went through xtra security & after they finished he quoted, "wipe me down" as he wiped off his AF-1's.
WILL FROM DAY 26- he's so stuck on himself i spoke but everytime i see him now i just look away.
LUPE FIASCO- a complete ass i spoke to him wasnt going to stop him in his tracks just told em i liked his music and he looked at me like he was disgusted well...screw you and your skinny jeans (where does your penis fit)
DANNY GOKEY- absolute sweetheart i am a huge fan of his i told em to tell his best friend Jamarr to sign with the neptunes because he looks like Pharrell and he thought that was pretty funny
FLAVOR FLAV- first and foremost he smelled like a brewery, he had his son with him and he looked ashamed to be seen with him...this fool asked me why i didnt audition for his show. I was in utter shock!
COMMON- i almost lost my mind, i love me some Common... I literally creamed my panties they uncreamed when i saw that he was with his daughter. He is so sexy and tall... he looked like he needed a shave but he was still sexy!
CLAY GUIDA- he is such a nice guy, i expected him to be a jerk since hes a fighter but hes quite nice.


SO MANY TO NAME WILL FINISH @ A LATER DATE
PEACE

25 Random Things About Me







25 Random Things About Me
1. I LOVE COLD PIZZA



2. I HATE APPLES BUT I LOVE APPLE SAUCE- aint that weird



3. I LOVE DIFFERENT CULTURES



4. IM A PEOPLE PERSON



5. I WANT TO AUDITION FOR THE REAL WORLD



6. I LOVE MY NAPS



7. MY NEPHEW MEANS THE WORLD TO ME



8. I LIKE TO MAKE PEOPLE LAUGH



9. I LOVE TO WRITE STORIES



10. I GO TO SLEEP TO FRESH PRINCE AND WAKE UP TO THE BACKYARDIGANS LOL



11. I SMOKE BLACKS WHEN IM STRESSING AND THATS ALWAYS LATELY



12. I FIGHT TERRORISTS LOL



13. I HAVE A GEMINI TATTOO ON THE BACK OF MY NECK



14. SEPTEMBER 29 WILL BE A DAY I NEVER FORGET



15. I HAVE TEN PEOPLE INSIDE OF ME LOL the gemini curse



16. I LIKE WATCHING THE DISNEY CHANNEL LOL im still a kid i guess



17. IM INTO ASTROLOGY



18. IM VERY AFFECTIONATE



19. I HATE THE SMELL OF OLD HOT DOG WATER



20. I HAVE AN ORDER TO HOW I WASH MY DISHES AND IF ITS NOT DONE THAT WAY MY WHOLE ROTATION IS JACKED UP-OCD MAYBE?



21. IM A FAN OF WIGS WHEN IM NOT ROCKING MY FRO



22. IM A SCI-FI GEEK



23. I COLLECT COOL SNEAKERS AND SCARVES



24. I THINK I AM JACK BLACK WITH A HINT OF TOM GREEN A DASH OF KATT WILLIAMS FUNNY WITH LISA LAMPANELLI'S TOMBOYISH SWAG LOL whats wrong with me



25. IM CONSIDERING BECOMING A VEGAN

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I AM TIRED OF THIS WORLD

TIRED OF THIS PLACE

SOMETIMES MY BLACK PEOPLE CAN BE A DISGRACE

OUR WOMEN DEGRADED

UNBORN CHILDREN CONSTANTLY HATED

THEY GET ABORTED AND ANOTHER LIFE IS WASTED

STRAIGHT TAKEN

BLACK ON BLACK CRIME

YOUNG THUGS SHOOTING THEIR NINES

BUT WHERE ARE THEIR MINDS?

THE EDUCATION IS GIVEN TO US BUT DO WE TAKE IT?

EVERYONE WANTS THAT EASY EASY MONEY SO THEY HOLLYWOOD FAKE IT

THERES NO DEBATING

EVERYONE'S DREAM IS TO BE RICH AND SUCCESSFUL

HOW CAN YOU BE SUCCESSFUL WHEN YOUR READING IS AT AN 8TH GRADE LEVEL?WE NEED TO GET IT TOGETHER

WE WERE ONCE KINGS AND QUEENS

GET OFF THOSE DRUGS, NOW YOU'RE HOOKED YOU'RE A FIEND

MEN, WOMEN LOVE ONE ANOTHER

WE ARE ALL SISTERS AND BROTHERS BUT FROM ANOTHER MOTHER

SET THE EXAMPLE BECAUSE THESE CHILDREN ARE OUR FUTURE

AT THIS RATE WE ARE DOOMED

OUR BRAINS ARE CONSUMED

STOP WATCHING TV AND PICK UP A BOOK

THEY ARE PUTTING SUBLIMINAL MESSAGES ON YOUR TUB JUST LOOK

WHAT YOU COULDNT TELL?!!

THIS WORLD IS ALMOST OVER CUZ WE'RE ALREADY LIVING IN HELL

GET IT TOGETHER

MY PEOPLE

BLACK PEOPLE

DONT WASTE YOUR LIFE DONT WASTE YOUR TIME

WE WERE ONCE THE GREATEST KNOWLEDGE IS KEY

GUESS WE FORGOT OUR ANCESTORS FOUGHT FOR US TO BE FREE

DAMN HISTORY REPEATIN'

MY MOM CONSTANTLY PREACHIN' I KNOW WHAT SHES SAYIN' IS TRUE

THIS WORLD IS A FUCKED UP PLACE AND ITS FAR FROM THROUGH

I AM ONE PERSON AND WHAT CAN I DO?

ITS STARTS WITH YOU!!

(C) DORIAN SHELTON

Me


ACCEPT ME FOR WHO I AM
OR DONT ACCEPT ME AT ALL
YOU DONT WANT TO BE IN MY LIFE?
SO WHAT?
I GUESS YOU THOUGHT I WOULD BAWL
OR FALL?
WAIT!!
SO NOW I NEED YOU TO SUCCEED?!!
I WAS FINE BEFORE YOU
I GUESS YOU THOUGHT YOU WERE A NEED
OR A MUST
PLUS
YOU ALWAYS POINTING YOUR FINGER AT ME
YOURE NOT GOD SO DONT JUDGE THEE
JUST GO BE YOU
CUZ I WILL ALWAYS BE ME
IM ME
THATS ALL I CAN BE
(C) DORIAN SHELTON